Its hard... to find the will!

Between this computer and the "everyday" its hard to sit down and want to work. When I do have time to myself its normally brief, there are 5 other people here who need and quite frankly deserve my attention. It is so frustrating to stop the recording, stop painting and leave to solve a problem or lend a hand or an ear, so a lot of the time I just don't paint during the day, instead any bit of free time is spent mindlessly wondering through twitter posts and Facebook. And then when I do feel comfortable the computer moves at a snails pace, constantly fighting with me as I draw lines... Max pressure here no pressure there, or it will just freeze. There just isn't enough memory to create nice pictures without having to battle the interface and heaven help me if I want to listen to music or a motivational word while I work.

Man...

But I have to keep telling me self "THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOURSELF, YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR FUTURE!" and then I say "WITHOUT HARD WORK YOU CAN'T GROW!" and then I remind myself "HARDSHIPS MAKE YOU GROW FASTER!"

Between today and yesterday this is what I've done. trying to figure out ways to make dynamic angles for this Metroid piece I've been wanting to do for almost a half a year. 

I'm also working on this Kindred video so look forward to that. I'll definitely be updating here so keep an eye out.

I just feel like I'm so far behind where I should be now... if I was actually working towards where I want to be now... 4-5 years ago... I'd be a monster... but we can't live in the what if we have to work with what is available to us now using it to make a better tomorrow.

Well guys... I love you! God bless, Be safe.